I am not one to normally use a blog. I had xanga and have met some great people out there on it. I no longer use xanga anymore either. I am here to pour my heart out to anyone that ones to take the time to listen to it. I am not whining and I am not saying my life is horrible, because it COULD be worse; I am just saying, I need a voice.
I became a stay at home mom when my daughter was born in 2008. That was the most joyfullest and happiest moment of my life. What better way to raise your child than being able to stay home with them 24/7?? I loved it so much I became pregnant with our second child in 2010. He was a month early, full of lung problems and was in the NICU for almost 2.5 weeks. Woah, now that I did not expect.
It all started when my daughter was around 11 months, we noticed her tantrums getting worse as well as her behavior. We questioned the doctor as well as everyone else: its just stage, it will pass. Okay I could deal with that. My daughter turned two and by this time she was talking sentences, very smart little girl. Again we questioned her attitude and behavior: well it seems like she might be experiencing some ADHD symptoms but she is just to young to treat it may still pass she is in her terrible twos. Got it, I'll try stricter discipline and more rewards for good behavior. Well that little girl turned three and I just couldn't go any further: I believer your daughter to be ADHD but no one will treat her until she turns four. Ohmygosh will someone please just help me! By age 4 I was seriously at my witts end, I was SO depressed, I didn't know what to do with her anymore. Tantrums and tantrums upon tantrums. She was so hyper, she wasn't sleeping at night, always in people's faces, embarrassing me at the store, I just could not handle it anymore. Two doctors and a therapist later we FINALLy got an answer: Your daughter is struggling with ADD/ADHD/ODD and possible pediatric bipolar. Okay, now I am thinking how did this come about, why did she have to develop this, how did she acquire this. Was there something I did? I had all these questions and her doctor assured me it was nothing I did or did not do, its just something that happens. Phew, okay. We got her started on medication, it has taken a couple different to find one that suits her for now and we also enrolled her with a therapist for behavioral therapy.
Okay, so now I am sure you are thinking: What is wrong now? Right? Even though she is on medication and is in therapy we still have struggles and daily challenges. She still has 1-2 huge outburst a day. I have no one to talk to, this is my story, my life, somewhere I can have a voice.
So hop on in and save the blog to see the daily struggles and challenges a mother faces when she has a child diagnosed with such challenges disorders.
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